well, i wrote in my previous post saying that i was feeling happy.... well, i was then.... but i'm sober now and i'm able to think more clearly.... i've managed to ground myself.... ground myself as in pulling myself back down from the dizzying heights that i was on.... i'm still thinking bout what happened that day.... i'm starting to think that it was a fluke.... maybe it was, maybe it wasn't.... gosh, if it was, then i would have been happy for nothing! haha.... but i'm prepared for it.... i jolly well have to.... my dad asked me some questions juz now.... cause he saw the photos.... man, my heart skipped a beat.... but i could see the discomfort in his eyes.... that he wanted to probe more.... but luckily he didn't.... cause i would not have known what to say.... geez.... what is happening to me siah! haha... ok, my bed is calling me now.... gotta sleep.... hahaz...


Riz lost himself at 10/27/2004 01:32:00 am

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feeling pretty happy now :D


Riz lost himself at 10/25/2004 01:29:00 am

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life is so precious... i've heard that statement so many times but today i finally understood what it meant.... my aunt, as in my dad's cousin, passed away this early this morning... after learning of the news, my whole family went over for her burial.... the thing is, her dad juz passed away 2 weeks ago.... and she didn't even know that her dad passed away cause she was admitted to the hospital on the same day as her dad... both of them fell sick on the same day and were admitted to the same hospital.... her dad passed away on that day itself while she was in icu..... nobody dared to tell her the truth bout her dad cause they were scared that she would not be able to take the news... but in the end, juz when it was thought that she was getting better, she left us juz like that.... she's so young.... she's only in her late twenties.... and she juz got married last year.... its very sad... i thought this type of stuff only happened in tv dramas, i didn't expect it to happen in real life...


i'm still worried bout my rf simulation paper.... madam lim have been giving me that "smile" whenever i see her.... when i asked her bout my paper, she told me not to worry... and yet she gives me that "smile".... oh man... but she did say that she was disappointed in me... sigh.... my final exams are coming... all projects have been settled.... the damn sms project is finally done.... oh man... i juz hate exams.... i'm juz not in the mood for it now... haha... but then again, when have i ever been in the mood for exams..... haha.... i'm gonna turn in now.... nitez....


Riz lost himself at 10/16/2004 11:54:00 pm

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yesterday was juz a crappy day.... i had my rf lab test in the afternoon and it was terrible.... simply terrible.... i panicked when i got the paper... i simply could not understand the questions.... there were 3 parts... and out of the 3,i could only managed one.... damn it.... i'm so so worried now.... i don't what the hell happened to me... i was pretty confident when i went into the lab.... but once i got the paper, it was like my mind went blank.... i couldn't remember anything.... sigh... i cannot afford to fail this module.... especially not at this point of time... i'm juz one and a half semester away from graduating.... not now.... please, not now.... it seems that nothing is going right for me this semester... maybe i picked the wrong specialisation.... what the hell am i doing?! i guess i have only myself to blame....


Riz lost himself at 10/12/2004 05:51:00 pm

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juz now i went to watch the singapore cup final at kallang stadium with beng and ah lei.... the match was surprisingly good.... i enjoyed myself over there.... haha... oh yah, tampines beat home 4-1 by the way... when i was in the mrt on the way to kallang, i saw this huge group of skin heads.... man, that was the first time that i ever saw them in person.... it was pretty intimidating as they were standing all around me.... haha.... but they weren't really rowdy as most people put them up to be.... in fact, most of them were pretty quiet.... but still, there were those who were making fools out of themselves..... but it was still scary nonetheless.... haha... well, i'm going off now.... see ya soon....


Riz lost himself at 10/04/2004 01:43:00 am

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why is it that when you're waiting for a reply, it doesn't come but when you're not waiting for one, it does? sigh.... i think i did something wrong again....


Riz lost himself at 10/03/2004 01:36:00 am

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what a day! i went running in the morning and after that i went to the gym with my friends.... then, after taking my lunch, i went to play tennis with the same group of friends till almost 6.... gosh, that's like one whole day of exercise.... haha.... i don't think i'm getting any fitter though.... whatever.... oh yah, beng and i are finally able to do pull ups!!! yea!!! all the hard work that we've put in these past 2 months have paid off!!! haha... although its nothing to most of the guys out there, but to us its something huge... but i can't stop now, i have to continue training and improve more...

today was akil's big day... i think.... haha.... that bastard, he's even faster than me... idiot! haha... i wonder what happened.... can't wait to meet him on monday so i can find out bout what happened today.... hehe....

yesterday, i was helping out in this basketball event thingy in school.... some boybands from taiwan came to campus to have a friendly basketball match with our school team and some contest winners... i muz admit, i did enjoy the match between the boybands and our school team... man, our school team is damn good.... they ran rings around those buggers from taiwan... haha... no offence yah to fans of those boybands.... but too bad they didn't actually trashed the boyband team.... you could definately tell that they were holding back and, as what most of you would call it, "giving them chance". haha...

ermm, talking bout taiwan brings me to the current issue of some taiwanese burning our flag.... what the hell is wrong with those buggers? juz because our foreign minister made a very minor comment bout your country, which i think is totally true, doesn't give you buggers the right to burn our flag.... would you like it if we burn yours, you idiots? and our foreign minister didn't even insult or criticise your country... he juz mentioned the things that could happen if you did some of the stuff that he mentioned.... and like you said, singapore is a small country, so why all these fuss? i'm sorry if i offended anyone here, i don't hate taiwan or anything like that.... i juz hate those few people who burned our flag.... whom i think is the minority... and i hope that is the case.... cause it juz burns me inside when i heard bout the news.... juz think bout it, you wouldn't like it one bit if you saw someone from another country burn your country's flag.... i'm pissed, damn it!


Riz lost himself at 10/03/2004 01:00:00 am

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